Ok...so...

yeah, this isn't gonna be some "woe is me" post or anything, but imma rant and rave and shit. so, school's ok. trustee stuff is cool. yet again, i'm overly involved in stuff...maybe i shouldn't be. I'm spending way too much time doing things for extracurriculars and not enough academics. i remind myself of the main character from rushmore. and yet again, i think that fall and winter brings out the lonelyness in me. i'm down again, it's weird. i have no reason to be. ihave great friends, i've made great friends with brand new people, and i'm involved in things that are awesome. the part that sucks is that i had a semi-sucky birthday surrounded by fights and arguments and sadness and excludedness, and that just kinda sent me in a rollercoaster that's going nowhere. so if i think of it that way, i'm sitting on the little seat with the safety on, yet i'm not going anywhere. it sucks that i don't have time to spend at home with family, or time to spend with my friends. i see a lot of them at school, but i never get to talk to steph or rachel. and it really sucks. last time i saw them was when we got our noses pierced, and that was like, 3 weeks ago. i'm thinking that i probably shouldn't talk about this out loud, so i won't name any names...as usual. lol. but i don't think anyone'll figue out who i'm talking about anyways, it's not THAT big of a deal. basically, yet again, i like someone whom i have absolutely no chance of getting to know/like me. well, yet again, that's a lie. i know this person, and i like them but they don't like me in the way that i like them. no details to be given though. i'll stop there. so yea. i'm watching LOGO with wady, the new gay network thing. I need to take a shower. and i need to craft, i joined a swap, and i'm actually excited. there only needs to be 2 items sent, but I might do more cuz I want to. :) Adios everybody...